Today has been an oddly serene kind of a day. I didn’t wake up until 16:00, but rather than instantly go into hyper-critical mode, I was more like, ‘ah.. that was nice and I feel well rested, now what shall I do with the rest of my day?’
I have been intending to go to the gym 5 times this week and it didn’t look like it was going to be on the cards today and it wasn’t, but again, rather than being self-critical, I’ve been cool with it.
I’ve read another chapter of the ACA Big Red Book, which today was about recovery at work and I’ve been to a new (for me) ACA meeting this evening.
I’ve already spoken about how I’m always angry, but spend most of my time stuffing or suppressing my anger and other feelings. It is only just dawning on me how angry I must have come across to people over the years.
After reading just over 60% of the ACA Big Red Book and attending just 3 ACA meetings, I am beginning to feel hopeful once again that there is a solution to this madness that I have experienced and created over my lifetime.
Maybe, for me, the saying really will come true, that life begins at 40?