I haven’t written a journal for a few months and certainly not since I moved home anyway.
So why today?
Because today I have just got back from my Reiki 1 attunement 🙂
Where I used to live and when I was once.xyz I shared my innermost thoughts from a place of darkness. I was just beginning to see the light and writing certainly helped free me, but I had no idea what awaited me on the other side. Then one day, everything change and it did so in an instant and because I changed one thing. I literally died and went to heaven, but that’s another story altogether.
So now I’m back and I have not only seen the light, I realise that I am the light. So what do you do with this knowledge?
Well, I now like to consider myself a master student and I’m a quick learner. You see I have been on a journey of self discovery for my entire life, so lucky me, when I eventually found myself.
Now that I understand the meaning of all things, I can use what I know to help others, but first I must attain skills and tools to help me with this process.
Just under 2 months ago I became a fire walk instructor. This was an incredible process of processes and one that I will treasure forever, but the experience of learning never ends, so I continue my journey for new skills, friends and experiences that will help me better help others.
My journey is no longer about me. I’ve found all the answers. My journey is now about how I can share what I know with the world.
It pains me to see that humans are still fighting each others, still destroying our home on planet earth with little or no regard for other forms of LIFE and it pains me most of all to see that many people still live in a vacuum of hate and are consumed by fear.
I know why this is, but it doesn’t have to be this way. Since my rebirth almost 5 months ago, I have met and continue to meet the kindest and most amazingly loving people that I could ever hope to meet. We are everywhere, but as we do not seek power or influence, we are in the minority and are often misrepresented and misunderstood by the majority.
For me the answer was simple, I didn’t try to change THE world, I only changed MY world. Now, everyone in my world is beautiful and loving and kind.
Back to today… I had my first ever Reiki treatment about 10 days ago, in preparation for my Reiki 1 training today.
The impact of the treatment was not immediate, but was certainly very evident the following day.
Today feels similar. My attunement was very calm and peaceful, just like my treatment. I was fortunate enough to have several visions during the meditative attunement process this evening.
I saw a bright hieroglyphic eye facing me, looking directly at me, within the darkness of my mind. As this faded I began to see the image of a real eye looking from left to right. Soon after a bright light began to emit from the eye as it travelled across my mind from right to left. As the image of the eye and the light began to fade it was replaced by an eclipse. As the moon began to move, the blinding light of the sun filled my vision.
Once the attunement was complete, my master asked me to practice self healing for the first time.
The results cannot be coincidental and anyway, I know that there is no such thing as coincidence any more. Everything happens for a reason, remember. Just like during my initial Reiki treatment, rather than see darkness in my minds eye, which is what I perceive and interpret when I meditate, I saw… light.
It is not a blinding light, it is more of a grey light. It is not darkness, nor can I create or see darkness during the process, but neither is it a blinding light.
I believe this to be my true being revealing myself as I evolve…
I am grey. I stand between the candle and the star.
For me, this is the meaning of enlightenment. We are neither black nor white, here nor there, yet we are both everything (everywhere) and nothing (nowhere) simply being perceived by something (somewhere).