I am myself, again deeply humbled right now and have been close to tears moments ago.
I wrote yesterdays journal as a reminder to myself of the gratitude that I carry and the path that I continue to walk. I choose to live every moment with mindfulness and the more practice I give myself, the greater the rewards. With every want that I shed, I receive more than I dare to dream possible.
I just received a message from Richard, saying that he and his family had just read yesterdays post and he thanked me.
His message was very kind and thoughtful and I was overcome with emotions. I had not written the post yesterday for Richard, I had written it for myself, but had decided to share it with him, as a way of thanking him for his support during my ongoing recovery.
His message of thanks has touched me deeply in ways that I have never experienced before. I meditated for a few moments to fully experience what I was feeling and to learn more about what it was.
Yesterday, I simply gave to myself, with no intention of receiving anything in return. I helped myself heal yesterday by writing down some of the key points about my recovery. Today I have received more than I could have ever dreamed of, so I am once again humbled and grateful for everything and everyone that I have in my life.
I want for nothing, yet I have everything 🙂 Surely it can’t get any better than this? I have never felt so alive or in touch with myself in all my life.
There is only one thing that I ever need to remember and that is:
If I am struggling I only need to pick up the phone and call a friend or get myself to a meeting and I will be loved and accepted once more.
I am starting to understand that I learn best when I am shown ‘how’, rather than taught ‘what’ to do.
Lead by example and those who see your light shinning brightly with automatically gravitate towards you, just as you do towards them. You cannot support those who have their eyes closed, because they will not see the light until they themselves decide to open their own eyes.
I hope this doesn’t sound too holier-than-thou. I mean it in a literal sense, not a religious one.
I gravitated towards Richard because I could see the good within him and the love that he was giving out. Once I accepted that he loved me, I realised that I could also love me. It was on that day that I fully opened my eyes and made the choice to begin becoming the best possible version of myself.
Find peace and be well. x or be whatever you choose to be 🙂